Forever in the Past and Forever in the Future

Jo Fang had no recollection of how she made her way home. When the medical results came back, she was in a daze.

The doctor informed her that she likely had less than six months to live, which meant her life had suddenly begun a countdown.

She had long since lost any attachment to the world, the only thing she couldnt let go of was Raymond Song.

From the moment she first laid eyes on Raymond Song ten years ago, his name had been etched deeply into her heart, yet Raymond had always loved someone else.

Even after three years of marriage, he had never once looked at her with anything more than disdain.

Perhaps it was masochistic, but at this moment, she felt an overwhelming urge to call Raymond Song.

It took a long time for the call to connect, and Raymonds voice was as cold as ever: "What is it?"

She pleaded cautiously, "Raymond, lets have dinner at Dream Summer Restaurant tonight. I..."

"Im busy, I have a meeting tonight." As expected, Raymond immediately rejected her.

"Today is our third wedding anniversary, and..."

I have something very important to tell you.

However, before she could finish her sentence, Raymond interrupted her coldly: "Marrying you is the greatest disgrace of my life. I suggest you not to seek embarrassment."

"I know, thats why I never bother you, but today is different." Jos voice trembled slightly, "If we dont go today, I might die, I might..."

"Is that so? Thats great," Raymond said with utmost coldness, "Ive been waiting for this day!"

"Why, I love you so much..." Even though the room was warm, Jo felt ice-cold all over.

"Because I dont love you, and I never will!" Raymond hung up the phone with a snap.

Jos heart ached, and her hand relaxed, causing her phone to fall to the ground and shatter into pieces, just like her heart at that moment.

After her parents passed away, the only reason she had for living was to wait for Raymond to fall in love with her. Now that he said he would never love her, could she finally let go completely?

If she died, would Raymond remember her?

Yet, she still had so many dreams left unfulfilled, like taking wedding photos with Raymond, watching the first snowfall at Nanshan together, having a beautiful and cute baby with him, and hearing him say "I love you" out loud...

All her dreams were related to him, and none had come true.

On the table were many photos of Raymond, from the age of nineteen to twenty-nine, a total of fifty-two, but none of them were looking at the camera because she had taken them secretly when he wasnt paying attention.

In the refrigerator was a box of chocolates that had been there for several years. Raymond had casually given them to her, but she had never been able to bring herself to eat them, keeping them to this day.

In the drawer, there was a watch that no longer kept time. It was one she had borrowed from Raymond, later claiming to have lost it and giving him a new one, while she secretly kept this one, which had accompanied her through countless nights until it too had recently stopped working.

Her days of secretly loving Raymond were filled with both sweetness and pain. Those memories seemed like they were from yesterday. Jo finally couldnt hold back and sobbed out loud. If she were to die just like this, would she really not regret it?

No, she would regret it. Otherwise, she wouldnt have shown such envious eyes when seeing other peoples wedding cars, wouldnt have secretly checked the weather forecast to see when it would snow at Nanshan, and wouldnt have quietly imagined a child resembling Raymond when seeing cute childrens clothes.

Jo wiped away her tears. No, she didnt want to die. Even if she had to leave in the end, she hoped that at least one of her small dreams could come true.